does anyone else think that there is a reason why all of us have been given these problems in our life times? and why can other people cope and get thru things in better ways? i always use my brother as an example because he is so strong, 10 years ago when he was 6 he got a really bad tumour and was told he wouldnt make it but he pulled thru but was then told he has ataxia telangiectasia which means he wil be in a wheelchair for the rest of his short life, he has so many other problems to deal with on top of it but yet he is always smiling
Why do i find it so hard to cope with everything and how come some people can go there whole lives without one problem? did i do something wrong in a previous life? am i being stupid tring to think of an answer to a question there wil never be an answer to? it just doesnt seem fair, the 1st 9 years of my life were great i was happy but from then on i cant really name another time i have been happy as if my brother, and mum being ill, my aunty died and i was bullied its just never ending and seriously believe things will carry on like this, i have already been told i have a massive risk of contracting breast cance due to almost everyother women in my family having it, and im scared.
sorry if i rambled on a bit, its all that ever goes thru my head, just wanted to write it down, i wrote my whole story in my journal last night makes me feel a bit better for a while.