I went t a new group the other night....one for depression/bipolar. of course they went around the circle and had everyone say something. I've been in a really depressed state (prob due to ED and my depression/bipolar). So I just told them that I'm at a real low and that things seem all cloudy and fuzzy and hazy. I saw some heads shake and some could relate to those feelings of haziness (I'm sure a lot of depressed ppl feel like this) but one lady blurted out 'do you think it's due to the anorexia?' It caught me by surprise because I didn't expect it at this group. So I said 'Is it that obvious?' But then someone else chimed in and said she used to have an eating disorder in her 20's or so...then the same lady who blurted out said she used to purge. So I felt a little better....but it's like I'm trying to go to a group to focus on my severe depressed state I'm in and the ED always pops up. I wanted to scream "I'm also bulimic!!!!!!!!!!" I'm just frustrated because everyone always says 'oh u feel like that bec you're not eating properly'. But no!!!!! Sometimes it's the depression too!! I'm sure it's a combo of both for me now...but I hate it when ppl blame it all on ED. Sorry to ramble and vent..
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