I have been in recovery for over a year now and I really have no idea why. My life is spiraling out of control and I don't know how to stop it. I have medicare and I can't find anyone who is willing to take the insurance. I have an out of control 11 yr old who has ADHD, ODD, and PTSD. She is out of meds and I can't get those refilled for a month until she gets into see a shrink . We moved here six months ago and my life is disintegrating around me. I have so many stressors from a 6 yr old with a broken arm to a 3 yr old with serious vision problems. I have no friends here and I have no support system here. I have been so dangerously suicidal these past few days and there is nothing I can do to change it. I just keep sinking. The angel date of my sons death is coming up here in a little over a month and I just can't stand the pain anymore. I am divorced and although he says he wants to work it out now, he is still withdrawn. I can't take anymore. My heart is broken and my life is shattered and I recovered for what???? To be miserable?? Can I just give up??
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