Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
I dont know if im replasing. Im not sure if its happeneing all over again. I need some help cos Im getting freaked out cos I dont know where my mind is.
I haven't had a meal in 2 days. I crave to feel hungry. I love to not eat. Every meal I skip makes me feel like I have gained someting. Everytime I dont eat I feel i have achieved something. I know I will eat today. I know that eventually I'll give in and ED will go away for a while. But then I might make myself sick. I dont know.
It feels like one second im okay. ED has left me alone and I can eat a meal. Then just out of no where something is telling me not to eat another bite. to put the food down and get away. Go for a run. Burn the fat off- theres plently of it. But then i'll be fine again.
I have only been ating well for 3 or 4 months. This cant be a relapse....not so soon?
Why has it come back? What did I do wrong?
I went to see the doctor last week. He said I'd gained a lot more weight but I was still underweight.
I want to get the numbers down on the scale one by one.
I dont want to put my boyfriend though this again. Is this my fault?
Whats happeneing I dont get it?
Please someone help
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I haven't had a meal in 2 days. I crave to feel hungry. I love to not eat. Every meal I skip makes me feel like I have gained someting. Everytime I dont eat I feel i have achieved something. I know I will eat today. I know that eventually I'll give in and ED will go away for a while. But then I might make myself sick. I dont know.
It feels like one second im okay. ED has left me alone and I can eat a meal. Then just out of no where something is telling me not to eat another bite. to put the food down and get away. Go for a run. Burn the fat off- theres plently of it. But then i'll be fine again.
I have only been ating well for 3 or 4 months. This cant be a relapse....not so soon?
Why has it come back? What did I do wrong?
I went to see the doctor last week. He said I'd gained a lot more weight but I was still underweight.
I want to get the numbers down on the scale one by one.
I dont want to put my boyfriend though this again. Is this my fault?
Whats happeneing I dont get it?
Please someone help
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im so sorry your feeling like this!! i went a year without purging but relapsed last may when my mum got sick, i really hope you can get back to how u were a little while ago, i know you can get better you had lasted a few months and i know you can do it again. xx
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I'm really sorry, but yes it sounds like you are relapsing. I started relapsing after being out of IP for about 3 months and I'm worse than before I went in. Maybe the doctor's remark that you gained a lot triggered you. Doctors can be so insensitive sometimes. But you got one big thing on your side. You honestly sound that you don't want to relapse. So see your therapist asap and tell him what is happening. I wish you the best of luck and I believe in you.
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Thank you so much. I dont know what I'd do without this ite sometimes xxxxxxxx
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Its a long hard road for you all, my daughter has relapsed this year after 4 months and I dont know if I can help her turn it round again. Remember not to let the bully back into your head, fight and push the boundaries today, eat your meal and then make an appointment with the clinic and talk it through.
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