This week has been so bad...and yesterday my doctor asked me whether I wanted to be more normal and why do I want to be thin so much..that ticked me off..Today have had a bad binge...3 bowls of frosties, a sandiwch and some toast, I broke a rule, now I hate myself and need to be punished. I have so many thoughts in my head, and I dont know what to do...Harm, overdose, im fed up and I cant fight anymore, I was thinking so much today that I came extremly close to getting hit by a bus, it just run over my shoe...unbelivble...just because I was thinking about Ana...I hate my doctor I am never going to see him again, I cnt call my cpn because she is off, so I have no one to talk to..so thoughts are just there waiting for me to carry them out :(
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