well where do i begin. i hope i dont talk to much...I am the youngest of ten...large irish family!!! growing up i always felt unnatractive...i hated freckles..sometimes i was even told i was unnatractive in high school. i also was told by people that i was beautiful and was even told i was the best looking girl in school. I was popular...and if you cant tell i am obsessed with looks. i started purging around 12 years old...took a break then started when i was about 15. I was purging about 7 times a day...i did what we all do...hiding food, garbage bags full of vomit...not menstruating...one of my teeth even fell out in class..how embarrasing. well i have two beatiful children a 5 year old boy and a 11 month old girl. i was purging throughout my whole pregnancy with my daughter. and now i am activley purging again. i am obsesses with food. i have been diagonosed with severe depression my whole life and have been on a variety of meds. the only med that has somewhat workes is prozac...80 mg a day...but it kills my appetite, sex drive and i am like a robot on it. I also have anxiety and bipolar disorder..so they think. i just dont know who i am anymore. I pretty much get high every night on my meds so i wont have to think about food but i just doesnt want to go away. I am going to die from this disease. i just dont know what to do anymore. Just thought i would join a support group. sorry about the long post
thannks for listening
thannks for listening
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