be able to quit...but its like this: If I want to stop binging and purging, then im not gonna eat much at all, in fact I probably wont eat at all. Before I had this problem, I hardly ate, and excersized daily, I pushed myself (it was that damn thanksgiving that got me which is the day I first tried binging and purging). I know thats aneroxic tendancies, and I also know that anorexia is worse and harder to get rid of than bulimia. So you cant win. What do I do? How is it fair that the only way to try and stop will lead you to something worse? Why did this disease have to be so hard to control, and win? Its taking me over, physically and emotionally, I just cant take the pressure anymore. I cry for no reasons all the time. For example, if there was a show on TV and someone just make a nice gesture, nothing that is depressing or sad at all, I start bawling like a baby. I really think I have reached the point at which I have lost my mind!
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