Since I got out of treatment last year I've been fighting ED off and on. My weights gone up down a few lbs. and kinda settled at a certain weight for the past 2 months. Now I just can't take it any more. I want it all off. I want my pre treatment weight back. I want to be able to see the outline of myself. I want to lay down and be able to see and feel my pulse in my stomach (I love how it jumped so big). I can't take it any more. I can't fight any longer. I'm tired of people comenting on how and what I eat or the fact that I ate. I just want to starve and go numb again. I don't want to feel any more. I don't want to fight any more. I want the world to just leave me alone. Is that possible?
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