Hi guys I just wanted to say that I really value you guys and I really need you. Well on my 11th day of no binging and I blew it. I don't know what happened it was like ED took over my body and I could'nt stop. I felt so horrible after and out of control and I cried. I was trying so hard to be so possitive for myself and for you. I felt like ED was laughing at me and saying you thought you were going to win this time did'nt you. I am stronger than you and you can't beat me. But you know what I realized I did'nt blow it I went almost 11 days without binging which is something that I have never done before. So here I am on day 1 again and I am ready to fight again and I will continue to fight until I am rid of this demon. I want all you guys to know that you are the reason that I am willing to keep fighting. Just knowing that I am not alone and that you guys are here with me is all I need. I love you guys!
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