I leave my boyfriend's house to come home and binge and vomit. I do it at least three-four times a day. I waste sooo much money eating and vomiting. My teeth are aching but I do it anyway. It is interferring in my life because I can't keep up with my responsibilities. I am at an amazing post grad school with major pressure and so many nights go by and all i've done all night is eat eat buy food and vomit eat buy food vomit vomit vomit eat vomit and it's hell and I cant escape and all I want is to be doing my work. It's gone on so long that I cant remember. I'm ruining te best relationship i've had in a long time.
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