
Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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Well ive been struggling with my ED for years now. I have this little devil saying do it and and angel saying but look what your doing to your body and how you will hurt and be scarred. But then the devil kicks in and say hey your only gonna miss the last few years of your life who wants those anyway its all just suffering. My mother tells me youve lost just enough wieght you should stop now. I wish it was that easy. I wish i could just ask for help. I had a baby girl five months ago. I struggled my whole pregnacy. I worked so very hard and it showed to bad it was a private struggle weather i should not eat that or i ate to much i should run to the bathroom. I felt that everytime i did it i would kill my baby. she was born very healthy and grew very quickly. now i find my self hiding from my room mates in the bathroom with my daughter in the tub with the curtins pulled back so she wont see. i know im so horrible but im sick and i know that ive lost like 15 pounds in a couple weeks. I sooo scared to go to the doctors. im not an unhealthy wieght yet im 135 pounds. but im soo scared they might think about takein my daughter away. so scared of that but i feel as though i need some kinnda help but tooo afraid to ask.

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I'm here to support you. For a second there I thought I posted this. Your struggles sound so muclike mine. I deal with the angel and the devil too. I also was struggling with my ED during my second pregnancy. I relapsed when I was 5 months along. My daughter was born perfectly healthy. I was so lucky. You were lucky too. I'm also afraid that my kids might be taken away because of my ED. But I know I'm an excellent mother. I try not to let my ED get in the way with that. I don't think your daughter could be taked away though because you have ED. They would have to find evedence of neglect. I know you don't like that you have to hide your daughter from what you are doing, but at least you are protecting her from seeing what are doing.

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I just feel like im stuck and the hardest thing to do is ask for help you spend all your time hiding it that i just dont know if i could.

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I know how scared you must feel. I've been in your shoes and my kids are now 18 and 13. I know you're scared, but the reality is that 95% of what we fear really doesn't materialize. If you reach out for help, like you are doing here, you will prove this statistic to be true. A huge relief will follow. I will be your friend anytime. XO

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Don't be afraid to go to a doctor. It doesn't matter how much you weigh. An ED is an ED and you are doing harm to your body. They won't take your kids away. Like skinnygirl I know I am a great mom - actually that's the only thing I'm great at. But even if you pull the shower curtain please don't do it with your child in the room. Even when they are little they are smarter than we think they are and you don't want them to pick anything up on what you are doing. Good luck.

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Oh, you so sound like me! I also am a solo mother with a daughter. She is almost the age I was when all my problems first started so I really stress about that and that make all my other issues worse. I dont tell anyone I actually know in person any of my private life, as I also worry they will take my daughter way.

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deleted_user
Sorry. i had a bad experiance with a doctor once i told him well i hinted, he was disscusted and i left and i never went back how am i to know what doctor i should tell if i get the courage to tell again. and what happens if i do tell, what do the make you do? and what if i get the same result?
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