Well ive been struggling with my ED for years now. I have this little devil saying do it and and angel saying but look what your doing to your body and how you will hurt and be scarred. But then the devil kicks in and say hey your only gonna miss the last few years of your life who wants those anyway its all just suffering. My mother tells me youve lost just enough wieght you should stop now. I wish it was that easy. I wish i could just ask for help. I had a baby girl five months ago. I struggled my whole pregnacy. I worked so very hard and it showed to bad it was a private struggle weather i should not eat that or i ate to much i should run to the bathroom. I felt that everytime i did it i would kill my baby. she was born very healthy and grew very quickly. now i find my self hiding from my room mates in the bathroom with my daughter in the tub with the curtins pulled back so she wont see. i know im so horrible but im sick and i know that ive lost like 15 pounds in a couple weeks. I sooo scared to go to the doctors. im not an unhealthy wieght yet im 135 pounds. but im soo scared they might think about takein my daughter away. so scared of that but i feel as though i need some kinnda help but tooo afraid to ask.