Im Chelle since I was 9 I have been Bulimic.For awhile i just wouldnt eat.Im ill alot with other problems so my mom didnt catch on as to what i was doing..I would actually not eat my lunches and hide em in my room til i was found out :|.So i had to start eating.I would eat in front of everyone like normal then go purge.My Mom just thought i wasnt feeling well.I am in a wheelchair its very hard to lose weight and i was reminded everyday your so short you need to be thinner.I got in an abusive marriage it just got way outta hand during that time i went down to about 90 pounds I thought i looked great but i landed in the hospital.I battle with it everyday,If im not cutting im purging or both.Im as they say at a healthy weight now but im struggling with the bulimia still I eat maybe once a day if I remember too sometimes twice.Its not even all about weight with me really I have alot of other reasons i do it.But I have had drilled in my head that im not thin enuf I wear clothes that are 3 times too big on me and im surprised when im swimming in some of them.Not many know about this part of my life.But i am trying to deal with alot of things and thought it was time i talked to other ppl battling the same problem.The cutting and bulimia go hand in hand.If i stop cutting im usually purging I have never quit both.Im not sure what to do anymore.I dont even need to stick my finger down my throat i can just make myself puke.Anyway thats me..
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