I feel like going crazy...food food food its all i can think about! or more specifically, my weight. Its like i feel msyelf growing, and i feel the food inside me even hours after eating it and i hate it! more specifically actually, its my wieght that weighs on my mind. my laxatives help some but i'd rather not take those and just not eat! sometimes i do so well and i can go for days or weeks and not eat anything, and not even get hungry. and i feel a ton more at peace! but then there are times, like right now, when the munchies attack and i eat more than i had planned, and in the worst cases, more than anyone needs in a day and i hate it so much!!! i'm so torn because i hate dealing with this and yet i absolutely cannot give up my ed and am far too scared to talk to a doctor about it or anyone who will make me eat...it won't let go of me and i can't let go of it. I am what is supposed to be a "normal" weight for my height, but i am so disgusted by what i see! I cannot stop thinking about it, i just know i'm gonna go crazy:(((
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