Totally the same here. My husband thinks that I don't love him but I want nothing more in this life than to love him. But I get physically nauseous at the thought of him touching what I see as an obese body that is way to soft and not pretty enough. I feel ashamed and I know one day this may be the end of my marriage, too.

yeah...whenever he goes to touch me i push his hand away...i feel like i dont deserve to be touched

This is a HUGE bone of contention in my relationship. He takes it personally -which makes me feel like shit - which makes me fall even deeper into ED's clutches. I don't know how to fix it either. Its truly heartbreaking. :(

TOTALLY.
Going to dances and stuff sucks, and I haven't hugged my family in years. I try to avoid contact with people.

Yep! I've got a bundle of issues about being touched and having sex... For me it's not really a matter of feeling fat, but being too preoccupied with my own thoughts, and that makes it hard to let go and just ... enjoy :)

OMG i totally have this. My bf Matt gets all offended and thinks I dont feel comfortable with him. He always tries to put his hand on my tummy or tickle me. I hate it. I dont want him to see of feel my belly.

Totally totally feel the same. I just cant let go of my inhibitions anymore-and cant ket my bf anywhere near me. Of course, I then get paranoid that he will look elsewhere (even though I have no reason to think this) and hate myself even more. Of course, when we actually do get intimate, it becomes this huge thing and i cant relax! i hate when i see people and they hug me and touch my side in any way. Sucks big time, because i know that my bf will just get sick of it eventually and find someone who isnt so fucked up...

absolutly hate it, sometimes i just grin and bear it for the sake of my marriage, losing him would be worse then living with this ED for life

I know exactly what you mean. I have ruined a few relationships over this. I find I go through stages I finding being touched completely unbearable, to the point of physical illness. But then I will swing completely the opposite way and just be unable to get enough (blush) Its very hard to sustain a relationship like that.

Same here. I dread to have sex but have it anyway for my husband's sake.
I hate it when he play slaps me on my butt or thighs and tries not to do it.
Hugs are fine with pretty much anybody. As long as it's not sexual I'm fine.

Funny this post should come up. Only yesterday my husband just casually touched me (through clothes) on my backside just below my waist, and I screamed at him and slapped him hard.

I cringe with ANY kind of touch, but can almost tolerate a hug now & then.

Oh I am the same way....my sister will touch me cause she knows I hate it...When my ex and I where involved...I hated it but got through it!

I can tolerate my mom giving me a hug...but thats about it!! Your not alone!!

This has got to be a symptom of EDs in general because it seems like everyone's in agreement. I am. Even when I was little I wouldn't want to shake anyone's hand. I can do hugs- the fake polite hug where no one actually is touching... just like a pat on the back- but I HATe it when people wrap themselves around my middle. I'm so scared they're going to remark about my shoulder blades or my ribs or spine or something. It makes me SO angry.

hugs and that i'm fine with but if anyone tries to touch my stomach or tickle it i absoultly freak out. i was forever moving my bf's hand off my tummy if he hugged me. I just said to him in the end can you please not touch my tummy your making me feel fat. He thought i was slightly werid but he did stop doing it lol

yep same with me guys..i hate it when it comes to making love cuz i cant do what i'm asked to do...and that makes tha other feel uncomfy too