so here I am at the age of 33 still dealing with this prblem of bulimia. My disapproval couldn't be any greater. I am always my worst critic and I am tired of taking on this job but I don't know where to turn. Actually, I have found some local groups but it doesn't seem like on a daily basis there is someone I can speak with about it candidly. I would love to speak with my husband but he looks to me as if I have 12 heads. He is a naturally happy go lucky guy and always positive. That is why I am so drawn to him. But on the same level he cannot begin to understand my depression, disapproval, and eating disorder (which I think he only half heartedly considers is real). He doesn't know how to deal so he turns the other way. I feel so alone in this struggle. I have suffered from depression and anxiety since I was a young teen. The bulimia took over in college. I am now a stay at home mom and find my afternoons dark and lonely. I find there is too much time on my hands to listen to all of the disapproval that festers in my mind. My only comfort is food, but then I fear weight gain and there goes the bulimia. I have also turned back into an exercise maniac. I just need someone to talk to on a regular basis and tell me it is ok. I feel as time goes on I am more paranoid about what others think of me. I feel I am projecting my own self hatred as their feelings but not sure if that is the truth. So much more to say but not sure how this all works. So I will wait to hear back from someone.
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