I'm running myself into the ground and I don't know what to do. I'm so overloaded that I'm starting to lose it again. I go to school full time and work full time and have to keep up with my emotional life. I'm doing the same thing that I did years ago that got me into trouble. My ED is coming back full force and the urges to cut are coming on strong, so are the urges to take some pills to stop everything from spinning. I need help but don't know how to get it. I've got my weekly support group but that's it. I'm afraid to be truthfull to those around me. I'm not sure if I want to keep going to school but I can't quit. I can't afford not to work. OMG I just don't know what to do. I'm freaking out right now. I'm so overwhelmed and I don't know what to do. My jaw is shaking I'm so overwhelmed. I want to just lose it but I can't. I can't even think strait right now. My journal explains it better I guess.
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