Hi people. I am coming across so many women/girls on this site and at work who suffer miserably with anorexia. I just realized I don't know much about this eating disorder at all. I understand body image and fear of fat, but I guess I don't understand how it serves, the part that feels good. I only know my own experience and that keeps me out of touch with other women who are in pain. I am particularly wondering how does an anorexic know she's sick if she sees herself fat? I am assuming you "know" you are dangerously overweight and "sick," but yet you still "feel" fat? Is that similar to me knowing that I am aware I am really not fat, and i know intellectually what my body fat percentage is, what I weigh,and the very real fact that I do carry a bit of padding. Yet, on certain days, I "feel" so damn fat that I fall into a hopeless depression, I don't come out of the house, I get irritated, I cry and rage and I actually feel the EXACT same way as someone who is obese describes their feelings about their weight to me. Also, I am curious to know if the "high," the "addictive" part so to speak, or I guess the most troubling part of anorexia, is due to the sensation one gets when not eating? As a binge/bulimic, my high comes from binging like crazy. I also enjoy eating when I am "normal" so I don't relate to the desire to restrict. So, I guess I want to learn more about anorexia to understand where the pain comes from (afterall, we all think we wish to have this disease!) and to be able to have more compassion and knowledge. Thanks already to those who respond!
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