I work in the fashion industry and it seems to wear on my self esteem like nothing else. I've felt pressure since I was young but now I feel this pressure to be thin, beautiful and full of enourmous energy. I can't wait to come home...strip off all my clothes and see if I have gained any weight. I wonder if my husband thinks I am fat, my co-workers, my mother. I used to be able to look at food objectively but I find that if I am one pound over 120 I freak out and feel so depressed that I just want to sleep until it's gone. I don't judge others on their appearance...why do I think they will judge me? I just want to be happy and I wonder if I ever have been.
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