I ate today for the first time in over a week, and I haven't thrown up yet. I am freaking out. I was all "safe" foods, and I know I didn't consume more than 50 calories, but still, I can't stand it. I need to have some nutrients, I know that I do. But I feel like I am letting the other side win by giving in and eating. I feel so weak and out of control- like I just binged insanely. I'm panicking. I'm shaking so bad. I can't do it, I need to throw up. I guess I will try again some other time... ?
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