Everything in my life right now is being "heightened" as a result of my binge eating disorder! I'm at the point in life where lots of things are up in the air, and because i have this disorder, i feel totally out of control when in realitiy, i should be feeling excited about new changes to come. I don't feel comfortable enough with my body to engage in a relationship with the opposite sex...yet, i am sick of being single. I don't have the desire to go out with friends because I feel fat and my clothes don't fit....yet I don't like to stay home and think more about myself. Every morning I wake up trying to have ONE DAY of normal eating, and each night I go to bed feeling sad because I can't seem to do it. I am tired of focusing on caloric intake when i should be focusing on my future career. I feel alone because so many people who struggle with binge eating disorder are skinny, and I just seem to gain more and more weight. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? Nothing seems to be helping. I am so so so tired of this!
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