My advice would be to find something besides food that makes you happy. For me it can be taking a walk somewhere, going out with friends, or sitting with a book/favorite tv show. When you feel like you want to eat something you shouldn't do something to distract yourself. good luck!

But what do I do about the bad feelings? They don't go away just because I distract myself, they are still sitting and waiting for me. I've been distracting myself for a week and it's not getting better...

The problem is that every time something disappointing happens you are going to use food to cope with feelings, this is a bad habit as you know, now you can't live in a bubble where nothing and no one every disappoints you so you need cognitive retraining either through therapy or by learning to write down all you fears and feelings when something happens, get them out in the open, dont let them sit in your stomach. You had 3 months of feeling free, get that back, regain control, journal write get it all out I beg you xx

i hear you sweetheart i'm in a bad spell too, after going something like 2 mo with only purging once, i've purged every day for the past week+. that's more than i have in the last few months combined. i don't have much advice besides you know that bad times come and go, you know there WILL BE a time when you come out of it, just like every bad spell happened and ended before these past 3 months of good, so if you can just picture that future, happy girl reaching out to yourself now, and just saying there is nothing for you to do now but get here. you haven't purged so you are obviously strong. you are going to get to that place again if you can just see yourself from the outside now and know you've just stumbled into a bad path now, just like a needle falling into a scratch on the record. i sometimes like to think of obsessive thoughts and compulsive behavior about food as just a skipping record in my head, nothing more than that, and i am in control. you are definitely still in control, sweetheart, good luck and hang on. we're all here for you!

Thanks guys. You are totally right. It's just a bad habit that I have to retrain. I love the scratch record imagery, very inspiring. I'm going to hold onto that in my mind. And journaling really does help. Shortly after I left this posting my dark cloud began to dissappear. Thank you so much for caring enough to leave me a message :)

I think it is awesome that you are doing so well and I want to congratulate you on that. You should be extremely proud of yourself for that. My advice would be to focus on how far you have come and think of it when it comes to binging because I know when I look at where I am now, I have come so far, and it is so nice to see that I am not where I was when I began 4 years ago. You might take a step back, but then another three steps forward and then another step back and then four steps forward, but you will keep going forward, slowly but you will get there. Recovery is a progress and look how far you have come already!!!

Great job!!

Just think about that =]

Stay strong girl and best wishes to you.