I have not purged since dec 21st and am holding strong, but I have had a few small binges since then. I am extremely proud of myself for sitting with the fullness and moving past it without doing anything distructive but I have been in a bad eating spell for almost a week now. Not horrible or stuffing myself or anything but rich foods and too many calories. I want to stop but feel like I can't. I want to purge but I don't. I want to mega binge but I resist. I feel like I'm having an internal standoff and I just want to get back to feeling good again like I was before last friday (in which something very disappointing happened)it's like one bad thing knocks me off my good track and I can't rebound like normal people. I know I must feel out of control but how do I get back in control without food being involved???
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