I can't stop myself from watching these videos on youtube.com about anorexic girls and I wanting so bad to look like them again. But at the same time I'm afraid to turn off the computer because I don't want to be alone with myself. It's only been 15 days since I ODed and the same feelings are still there. If anyone is still on and wants to chat message me. I've got to stay out of my head tonight.
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