Hey everyone. Well it has been over two weeks since I have joined daily strength and I feel like my life has done a 180. The night before I joined I had b/ped twice in a row, I was slumped on the bathroom floor in tears feeling absolutely horrible. I woke up a 4:30 am because I was parched and in a full sweat and never fell back asleep. I joined daily strength the next morning. Since then I have been focusing on eating well, exercising and taking good care of myself and so far it has been working. I haven't b/ped once - not even close! I know what it's like when the urge to binge takes control of you body, and horrible feelings of embaressment and guilt that follow purging, but I also know what it's like to overcome that urge, and the feelings of pride and empowerment I get when I make a healthy choice. Maybe I'll never b/p again, and of course I hope that it the case, but I know if I do it won't be the end of the world and I'll keep on the road to recovery. I guess I just want to let everyone know that an eating disorder IS something that can be overcome, and there is a better healthier life awaiting all of you. So stay strong and never lose hope. THANK YOU SO MUCH for all the support and for being here to listen!!!!!!!!!! It has truely changed my life : )
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