I just joined this group, and from reading through the various discussions, I'm glad I did. My story in a nutshell -- I have been bulimic for -- get ready -- more than 30 years. I don't recall exactly when it started, but sometime in my early teens. For all this time, up until three weeks ago, I binged and threw up every single day. Food, and enormous amounts of it, was my entire existence. I literally shut everything and everyone else out and made it the sum of my existence. I'm now working a recovery program on my own and am on a waiting list for a local eating disorders outpatient center. I'm not just ready to leave bulimia behind me forever, I'm ready to live a full rich life -- complete with the bad stuff that I always buried with food. It's scary -- everything was so safe and secure inside my bulimia blanket. But I am determined. I hope to have discussions with you great people as we all work our way out of this mess and on to the good stuff!
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