Fighting two addictions is hard math.

And a lot of people experience things like this. Once they release one vice or addiction, they find themselves turning to something old or something new to replace it.

Keep at it with AA. Make sure you utilize your sponsor, or find a friend in the group you can call during those midnight crisis times. That's what they are there for!

Keep at it with your slimming club if they have a focus on health, and not simply weight.

I think it would probably be a good idea to add some therapy in there. You've got two big issues to deal with, and you want to stay on the right track with both of them. (And, by the way, you're doing a really fabulous job at being on the right track.)

Thank you xx

I can only imagine how hard this is for you to be dealing with both. The only why I can control my binge's is by either ignoring certain aisles at the market completely, pre-portioning most of my food and buying food that even if I binge aren't going to make me feel bad...like celery, carrots etc.

i can relate too as far as have to recover from alocholism and eating disorder same time. i also stop binge and briging and i thought i everthing was okay with my ed and know everything becoming a problem and i dont want to start throwing up.

Hi Taff,
I agree with Celticfif - I think it would be a good idea to find a counsellor. But stick to your guns and make sure you find someone that is listening to you.

I have been suffering from binging behaviours for 7 years now, and the thing I always struggle with is I never know why I get the urge to eat when I do. But it is so strong and I never know what to do about it. My counsellor said that with fear always comes anger, and she could see I was angry about a lot of things. I was surprised, since I fear a lot, but I didn't think I was that angry.

So she suggested that I try being angry in a "good" way - I didn't know there was such a thing, but it turns out its perfectly healthy to feel angry. She said a good way to be angry in a good way is to beat something or someone (who is aware of what you are doing) up with a pillow. I have found that now whenever I get the urge to eat, I know that my emotions have gotten to a point where they need to be released - even though I still struggle to recognise them - I just know I want to eat so something must be wrong. So I pick up a pillow and go and beat up the spare bed! I know it sounds crazy, but its a real break through! I think it helps me to change the focus from trying not to eat, to trying to address my emotions.

I hope this is helpful to you. Either way, we are all with you, you should be proud of who you are.

Thanks to you all. I didn't manage not to throw up, and felt so ashamed after. I had a long talk with my husband who is extremely supportive and understanding. I felt like I was going mad. He said that the day previous he had expected me to drink or go to an AA meeting as I had crashed his car and was upset and angry. But I did neither, just got on with stuff as normal. I guess the emotions had to come out somewhere, and they did in my binge. I had a good cry, then went to rugby training where one of my mates gave me the biggest hug without me even saying anything - guess I must have been exuding misery!
Just for now I will avoid trigger foods, and try and be less complacent about my ED. I have been focussing on my sobriety, and the Ed just snook back up from no where. Must keep my eye on the ball, and not beat myself up about one little slip. Must also talk more to hubby, he talks a lot of sense (he is a doc, so probably should!).
Thanks for everyone's support and advice.
xxxx

I would say recognize and voice the feelings that are on your mind at the times you feel like hurting yourself. Find safe people to talk.