I woke up again this morning at around 5am. This time was different though. My chest hurt SOOOO bad that I couldn't get up. I couldn't even move. It was really scary for me. I don't know what's happening. I knew I had to stay calm, so I just laid there in my bed and tried to go back to sleep. Now I'm up again and my chest still hurts me. It's been hurting on and off like this for a few days. I will make a call to my NP today because this is really concerning me. I barely ate anything yesterday to even be considered "normal" for me. Ana is beating me down in the worst way! This is the third day of my cold. I need to keep track of how long it lasts. Remember when I went to my mom's house? Well those spider bites I got... they're still not healing. That's another thing to be concerned about. Please pray. I'm exhausted. I wish I could just force myself to eat! I also just got some clothes to go take a shower, and number 1) I'm freezing... 2) I have a winter hat on and a hoodie on that didn't used to fit me because of my arm muscles. I'm losing muscle mass! I didn't even notice it! I've also lost 5 pounds since my peds appointment. And I know this isn't just water loss because clothes that I never used to be able to wear are now loosely fitting me. And just to let everyone know, since I got weighed at the peds clinic, I haven't weighed myself until today.
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