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The thing about Bulimia is that I look so normal I do my BMI a lot, and though it doesnt really look it to me, the numbers tell me that my weight makes me miss average, Im exactly where I should be.
Except I'm not, not really, because I binge and purge, and I do it a lot... (Im new so I dont know how this board feels about numbers so I think Ill play it safe and not mention how many times a day (I dont want it to get competitive)). Anyway, its spiralled in the last six months leading to the 'serious' physical symptoms (heart fluttering/ traces of blood in vomit/ dizziness) and Im scared. and I want help ,but I cant do it... I dont know how I could go and see a doctor or a therapist when no one in my life has any idea what I do to myself and just spit it out that Im sick. And I really want to know if theres anyone out there who did it? With no encouragements from friends or family, and not having been referred, just alone. And what happened?
Im just so scared of sitting in a doctors office feeling like an attention seeker, a fraud or a crazy person....
But then again Im even more scared of being dead.
Except I'm not, not really, because I binge and purge, and I do it a lot... (Im new so I dont know how this board feels about numbers so I think Ill play it safe and not mention how many times a day (I dont want it to get competitive)). Anyway, its spiralled in the last six months leading to the 'serious' physical symptoms (heart fluttering/ traces of blood in vomit/ dizziness) and Im scared. and I want help ,but I cant do it... I dont know how I could go and see a doctor or a therapist when no one in my life has any idea what I do to myself and just spit it out that Im sick. And I really want to know if theres anyone out there who did it? With no encouragements from friends or family, and not having been referred, just alone. And what happened?
Im just so scared of sitting in a doctors office feeling like an attention seeker, a fraud or a crazy person....
But then again Im even more scared of being dead.
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It didn't take long for me, actually. I couldn't hide the fact from myself and I have a huge guilty conscience, so I cannot keep a secret like that from people I love. Though ED kept me from it every other day, there was one exceptional day where, somehow, for literally maybe a half an hour, I had worked up the courage to tell my mom. And I did. My mother took me seriously, and began to look into outpatient programs; even though it was early on and I didn't look blatantly sick yet [unfortunately it did come to that eventually, but that's because I wasn't ready and my first therapist sucked]. Whoever you are going to tell, look them in the eyes as much as you can - they will immediately know you're not joking.
I've been to the doctors when I was thin, but not my thinnest. I'm not going to lie, they didn't make the best choice of action. But I believe even if they had I wouldn't have agreed to it anyway. Much of your recovery is dependent upon how badly you want to recover. If you truly do, others will see it. If you're real about wanting to ditch ED, you shouldn't worry too much about what doctors will think. Unless they are complete airheads, which in that case shouldn't even be employed, they will get you to help.
Start with family first, though, I'd suggest. I imagine it's easier to tell them before you tell a doctor. But do not wait too long in between if that's what you do. Make sure, either way, to get help and fast.
Hope I helped *hug*
The first step in helping yourself is admiting you have a problem. Doctors are very understanding and it wont be as scary as it appears. They will support you and keep an eye on your health. I really feel you should get checked out because your symptoms sound concerning.
They wont think you crazy or anything its a common problem, they will think you are a strong person for admiting it and wanting help.
Keeping this all to yourself is really damaging and will be causing you more stress than u need it to. If you need any more help am always here- keep me posted. I will support u all the way through this. Lots of love xx
Don't worry about seeing the doctor or therapist. They are there to help you. Just be honest with them and tell them how scared you are and you want to get better. By the way I admire you for deciding to get help. It's a huge step towards recovery. Good luck.
for me, perfection and wanting to be the best daughter or sister is why i started b/p in the first place. after my brother died, my family labled me as the one that had it all together and the one that was dealing with death the best, but in reality i havent been the best..not even close.
try to focus on both the physical and the emotional part of ed.. any addiction is hard unless you find the underlying cause. its going to be tough but im sure you can do this!
I wish I could offer you some advice. Thanks for being brave looking for suggestions and help, it makes me feel not so alone and not so much like a freak.