I was superskinny in high school and into my 20's. I didn't really have to starve myself because I just never got hungry. I ate when I felt like it and filled up on practically nothing. I weighed 105 at 5'6" and that was a normal weight for me. But then I started to get even taller and I started to obsess about gaining. I held off at 110 at 5'8" until I began dancing and got on some medications for my bipolar disorder that forced me to gain weight. I exercised so much that I still looked amazing and at 125 pounds and 5'8" the doctors wouldn't force me into the hospital to gain so everyone was happy (but me). I thought if I could just stay at 125 everything would be fine. Then they changed my meds and I instantly gained 50 pounds in 4 weeks. I hated it, but I did feel emotionally better. Now, years later I've been a yo-yo dieter and I can't stop eating. I am overweight by 15 pounds and I hate my fat body. I can't accept myself, but I can't get off the meds. I don't want to purge, but I feel afraid that I will start. Help me.
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