So Im going nuts. I was doing so well with the not over eating thing or buliemia. I started this course and began going somewhere in my life, and enjoying it, meeting people and going out (was visiting my mom at the time) but things started falling apart when I got back to LA). Still jobless, depressed, stressed out with my toddler and other issues, alone, no support, no babysitter thus no life. No life, no job and a toddler (which I love , love love dont get me wrong) whom takes a lot of me. And so i am indulging in food again to escape, to feel good again, to ignore the lonliness, the depression, the emptiness etc. I dont know what to do anymore. I love LA, but it would be perfect for me if i didnt have a kid. I cant have a lfe out here im so alone, and isolated and depressed. my moms state is very cold and cloudy- i get even more depressed and moody in that kinda of weather, like seriously depressed. I dont know what to do. I feel so trapped.
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