I have something that I need to get off my chest..

I reached out to this community during a very diffucult time. I was feeling so badly I was considering ending my life through passive suicide. I feel alone and worthless and when no one responds, it makes me feel even more worthless. As bad as I feel sometimes, when I see someone who needs some support, I will always reach out to them because I don't want anyone to feel like others don't care. I don't post often, but when I finally do and get little to no response, this makes me want to leave this site in order to save myself any further pain and grief...

To those few who did reach out to give me some support, I thank tou from the bottom of my heart and I promise to try my very best never to overlook you in your time of need.

Trust me when I say...I'm NOT trying to throw a guilt trip and I'm NOT looking for a pitty party. I simply needed to vent because it makes me feel somewhat better.

it hurts me to hear anyone say they are thinking about ending their life. I dont know you and dont know exactly what youre going though, but anyone, even a stranger, i know can help. It is so so important to have a support system, and its definitely a requirement to getting better.. there is no way i would consider this a guilt trip or you making someone feel sorry for you.. i know it is hard when you are going through something to have no one to turn to.. but please please know that no matter what youre life is WORTH LIVING.. no matter how bad you think you have it.. there is always support .. and i hope you find it here. i try to be on as often as i can, but if you need to talk or need advice.. feel free to message me. i will be more than happy to hear you out. just know your life is a beautiful thing and you can overcome ANYTHING you put your mind to! good luck with everything and god bless you

I'm sorry you did not feel supported on this site. I for one do not visit daily so I'm not sure which post was yours. You should call a suicide hotline when you are feeling that way so that you can get a human voice on the line that can/will talk to you about your problems and listen.

OMG i feel exactly the same way. it just seems like u have 2 b "in the click" to b thought of around here. i may leave this site as well, friend, ur not alone!

Thanks you guys...your supportive words have helped me alot. Yes, I agree...there seems to be "cliques" here, and I really do feel like I don't get much support in this forum. I have posted a couple of times, and the same kind people responded, but no one else. Everytime I posted, it was during a time when I was in some kind of a crisis and really needed help...and I only ended up feeling unvalidated at not important enough to help. I'm in a really BAD place right now...my blood pressure is so low and my pulse races when I get up, I have dizzy spells...I eat only a quarter cup of "Special K" per day, and I also restrict fluids, and feel very dehydrated right now. I'm scared... and I wish someone would talk to me and tell me that everything will be alright...I can't talk to my friends and family because it upsets them...so I try to reach out here, and when no one responded, I felt like I was worth NOTHING...

I'm sorry your original post got pushed back and that you're feeling so badly. I disagree about the clique thing though, to be in a clique you have to have a group of people who are all friends, for me, I have friends but the majority don't know each other... try reaching out to people, like you did for me last night *hugs* I'm here if you need to talk, I understand the suicide feelings

I'm sorry you're having a hard time..it's tough. I'm new to the site but really hope that it's not full of clicks but last nite I needed support and posted an entry that I didn't get any replies to until much later (it was in a different community)and that can make you feel alone and unimportant. It's hard when you're reaching out and all you get is silence..you want it to be instant so I guess we just need to be a bit patient and hope others will respond. I want to believe we're all here to help ourselves as well as others. So please know that people do care and that you should continue to reach out. I hope you begin to feel better. Please take care of yourself and be strong, easier said than done but it can be done..you're worth it!

i dont get many responses to my post either. i try not to ignore people, but i've realized that when im on, usually at night, there arent a lot of people on to reply. Im here for just about anyone.
but, i know how it feels to be alone. and please, dont commit suicide over it. its not worth it. talk to someone, anyone. message someone. im usually on a lot throughout the day, just about everyday. message me sometime if you need to talk. im here for you. *hugs*

I was not planning on comitting suicide over anything. I was just struggling with taking in fluids and it was beginning to affect me medically, and I couldn't find the strength or motivation to creep out of this hole I was in. I knew I was killing myself slowly through PASSIVE suicide....just to clarify things...I don't want anyone thinking that I am actively suicidal because I'm not. Thanks for the support!

I'm so sorry I wasn't here for you!! I was sitting through a dubious presentation of "Carmen" while I could have been making lame observations about your weed-smoking rabbit to try and cheer you up.I'm sorry people didn't reach out. Maybe they were too scared?
HUGS:) Glad to hear you're feeling a bit better.

How sad we so many times use God as a last resort instead of first priority. You are never alone. He's always there - if you invite Him into your life that is. So next time you are feeling low because you think you are alone, you need look around and realize you are alone, with God. Personally, I can't think of anyone else's company I'd rather be in.

Thanks everyone....and I just needed to clarify...that's a french fry in my rabbit's mouth, not a joint!lol