The 4 hospitalizations were for the eating disorder, but no I have no tools to deal with this relapse. I can tell myself all the negative things that can happen, but it simply is not enough. I have already gotten to the point of getting up and almost falling over because if the light-headedness, and know that if I pass out at school, I will be on a short leash. All I guess I care about is trying to surpress the anxiousness and fear and the only way I know how to is through giving into ED, which I have. Thank everyone for allowing me to share you know I would not wish this miserable existence on anyone. I hate me so much.
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