hey guys,been trying to write in my journal but just upset and it's not working so here i am. i know i need to live my life for myself and my kids. so fri. night my father calls screaming at me for not being in massage school anymore. i told him when i dropped. he knew why. i can't be in mass. school and have ed that's not healthy as we all know. didn't wanna put that on others and the clients. he's downgrading me,my therapist,my meds, my WRITING,the fact that i don't have a job yet,everything. and i start crying then got off the phone and b/ped for the 1st time in 4 days. i know he's holding the computer over my head. the only reason he bought it for me is because i was in school. but I am the one paying for the internet service. he lives in wa state. he was emotionally/physically abusive when i was growing up and i still feel afraid of him at 31 even though i've not seen him since 51/2 yrs ago. any suggestions on letting go of that fear? i still flinch easy,don't like stuff thrown towards me,or any kind of confrontation. want to get past this. thanks
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