today my son and i are going by bus to a yankee game, it is a night game. i am really excited about seeing the new stadium and watching them play. however, anxiety is already kicking in. i dont like to be away from home without being able to get home if i need to. this trip is going to be an all afternoon and late night/ early morning time. panicky about what i am going to eat, bathroom issues, feeling trapped. i am bringing my protien bars with me and i feel so stupid and ridculios for feeling this way, i do want to go. damn ED and its influence and damn my anxiety.i hate them both. i cant let on to my son, though i have before, as he is treating me and i dont want him to feel burdened with my problems. i think i will bring a book, maybe that will calm me. we will have about 2 hours before the game to wander around, i must make the most of this. why oh why do i make such a mountain for myself???
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