I know a lot of us are embarrased of our eating disorders. I mean, that's one of the reasons why we hide them. But I'm also sometimes embarrassed by my weight. Like when people tell me I'm way too thin or when they ask me if I'm eating, it just makes me want to crawl under a rock. I don't know, they make me feel like I'm a freak or something. So, this embarrassment is what makes me want to gain weight, but at the same time I'm afraid of gaining weight. Don't get me wrong, I don't see myself as fat, I know I'm thin. However, gaining as much as half a pound does make me feel fat. I know that it's irrational and that it's a distorted perception, but I can't help it. Have any of you felt this way?
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