I am a 34 year old who amazingly developed an ED- no prior onset at an earlier time in my life. It is embarrassing as well as ridiculous. I constantly ask myself how in the world I could have allowed myself to be in this situation. I do have a history of depression, but I am otherwise a stable individual. I am happily married, have 2 children, and am a high school teacher. The worst is the shame I feel after purging the thousands of calories I consumed in a short amount of time. My husband is aware of the problem, and I am fortunate in that he is understanding. I have began therapy and am cautiously optimistic. I am trying desperately to free myself from the diet mentality and trying to let go of the \"forbidden food list\" I have created in my mind. I do believe my disorder stems from years of weight obsession and strict dieting as well as unresolved childhood issues. What better way to medicate yourself than to eat your feelings? Afterwards I deprive myself of anything that might be remotely caloric for many days. Stress and deprivation set in, and once again, I find myself doing what I promised myself I would not do again- binge and purge. I am anxious to hear from anyone who has had a similar onset.
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