
Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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*steps up on soapbox*
i am so incredibly sick of being (ed nos ) - of gaining weight and then losing only to gain 20 lbs more. i have gained 10lbs in a month and i'm just about sick of it. it makes me want to starve myself again - at least i had results. i hate food or rather hate myself for liking food. i waver between coe and ed nos - i've never hit the anorexic rate and i barely purge. i was doing it about three times a week to two times a day before my current relationship started - and that's how i'm gaining all my weight cause i'm not purging anymore.. ugh.
i don't know what's safe to write here.. i just wanted to get some of this out of my head.
thank you for reading.
i am so incredibly sick of being (ed nos ) - of gaining weight and then losing only to gain 20 lbs more. i have gained 10lbs in a month and i'm just about sick of it. it makes me want to starve myself again - at least i had results. i hate food or rather hate myself for liking food. i waver between coe and ed nos - i've never hit the anorexic rate and i barely purge. i was doing it about three times a week to two times a day before my current relationship started - and that's how i'm gaining all my weight cause i'm not purging anymore.. ugh.
i don't know what's safe to write here.. i just wanted to get some of this out of my head.
thank you for reading.
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just trying to point out, that no matter what your BMI, weight, or ED 'status' is, it's still an illness and doesn't make you any 'better' or 'worse' because of it.
if that makes sense..sorry it's late..and i'm tired.
I hate the way my body can't refuse food, and the way i'm so weak that my mind can't say no to the temptation. why does human life have to depend on something so horrible? and if i don't eat i get really exhausted which makes me even angrier. it's gotten to the stage where i don't want to leave the house and have started to take days off uni just because i don't want anyone to see me.
between my bouts of restrictive eating i binge unrelentlessly. i started trying to 'heal' myself a little while ago and the first step was trying to eat properly, a little bit each day but this quickly developed into a fullscale binge so now i don't know what to do. i want to get better and stop the dieting, but i've put on weight since i stopped and i don't feel comfortable anymore. i feel disgusting and fat, and i can hardly stand to even fold my arms because they feel so fat. i just want to feel happy with myself and normal (whatever that is) but i have no idea how to achieve this. i feel really alone all the time as i can't tell anyone and one person in particular who i have told doesn't seem to really care.
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