I bought Rice Krispe bars. I had one and have eaten too many, I think about 10 at 90 calories each. I started the day with string cheese and had 6, then I had something else. I tried but I just could not do well today. I think I might have PMS. My eating disorder started this week when I had one fruit sugared string. It is made with a lot of juice. It has 50 calories but I kept eating that too. I was thinking what should I give the kids in baseball for snack, these fruit sugared strings or Fruit gushers. I didn't want to give away the fruit string and kept eating it. I think I had 10 that day, the next day I did not do well, eating more shreaded cheese, a bowl full, and some Oatmeal granola bars a few. I feel horrible with myself and want to get back to normal. I have been doing very well until this past Wednesday when I started with the fruit strings. Is there anyone who can help me with this. I feel lethargic and upset. Things that are going on. I had to get 5 biopsies done on 5 abnormal looking moles today and it hurts right now, I am sure it will get better but it hurts. I havn't taken a shower in 5 days and I feel stinky but I can't take a shower until tomorrow because you have to wait 24 hours after the biopsy. We had a new shower door installed and I wanted to wait until the new door was installed to take my shower since our old one was hard to shut but then when he installed it he said we couldn't use until this morning. I thought after my dermatoogist appt. I can take my shower but then I got these moles biopsied and I forgot I can't take a shower. I had gone in thinking I would get biopsies but wasn't sure, I was going to get stitches out from a mole that I had to get taken out. I also had a handiman that was going to come today and he didn't show up which bothered me. I am very tired, we have to go out tonight to get a ticket for our 14 1/2 year old daughter to go to a concert with her friends, which might lead us to eat out but with all that I ate I don't want to eat out, family could bother me. I feel a little abused right now, not comfortable. I am low in self esteem and not feeling good, maybe these things led me to eat. Now I am not going to do well and gain weight all because of this.
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