i read a book recently calleed "Living without ED", this book refers to an Eating Disorder as "ED", replacing our obsessive and unhealthy thoughts with food as someone called Ed. it talks about divorcing Ed, and how hard it can be.
It made me think of how hard it is for people to get out of abusive relationships, it can be difficult (mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually and financially). is it not the same with Ed!??
How do we do it... the difficult thing with us is that, sure, you can eventually distance a person from your life (have no contact whatsoever), but we cannot do that with food. we need to face food everyday, so we can live. and, sure, often i dont want to live another day, but when i really think about it, i couldnt handle putting my family through dealing with the death of "the baby of the family". i would feel so guilty for making them sad.
so how the hell do we choose? do we put ourselves through our life of misery, just to see mum, dad and our brothers and sisters live their lifes happy? or do we face our demons (Ed) and try to rid our lives of our "best and only friend" forever..