i feel like i don't even have an eating disorder, like it's not even a big deal. i only puke a couple times a month, when i feel like i ate way too much and i just need to get rid of some of it. and i have really good stretches, where i eat a normal amount and it's all good. some days i don't even exercise. but every time that scale shows a higher number than the day before, it starts again. the restricting. but still, i don't feel like it's a problem. i mean, so what if i eat less than 1000 calories a day? im still eating. and it's only when i gain weight that i do this, until i get back down to where i want to be. and i puke way less often now and...i dunno. i honestly don't. the evidence suggests it is a deal, but i don't feel like it is. *shrug* im confused.
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