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Yello,
I had a scary experience on this website the other day and it has stayed with me so I decided to let you all know. someone posted a video from youtube and I went and looked at it and it wasnt so bad, but then I looked at some more about ed's or whatever they call it onthere and I seen something that made me so sick to my stomach and I was very very disturbed. It was a photo of a girl who died while purging. It was very graphic and seemed to be real. It showed a girl by the toilet and she was dead because when she last purged her stomach ruptured and killed her instantly. I really cant explain in words how this effected me. I have stopped purgeing and it has been many months, but I am so scared I have done damage I cant undo. will this happen to me even if I have stopped purging? I guess her stomach got a hole in it and it has lowered to her bowels. I guess just the morbid thought of seeing the pic and realizing this could have been me scared the living shit out of me. I had already been scared once, by the fact that you can die from you esphogus rupturing and bleed out, so geez, I am truely done with purging. Plus, I stoped restricting too!! Let me know what you guys think? I know this is really a scary thought but its the reality of an eating disorder.
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I'm not sure if that photo is truly due to an ED. You can't always trust what you see on the internet.
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Yeah, I know, but I looked up the effects of ed's and the rupture of the stomach does happen, and this is not the only thing that can kill you. Maybe the pic was fake or whatever, but I still believe that you can die from purging to much. It just bothered me, thats all.
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Most people don't die from purging. The death rate is mostly from people who just can't take it anymore, and commit suicide. But yeah, the physical effects are horrible.
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yeah, Im glad I stopped before it was to late. I just cant imagine my fiance or my family finding me like that or whatever. I dont know I guess, it just slowly got old and with therapy and meds, I slowly was able to stop, but it wasnt easy. I went from purgeing 12 times or more a day to none and hopefully this will help my health and I will not have many lasting effects. I might have some teeth prob, but I dont know because I dont have insureance and so I dont go to the dentist and I think it caused some acid reflux and stomach emptying problems but I am hopefull they will go away in time.
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Hey, so whatever if the video was real or not, I am so proud of you for stopping the purging and the resticting! No matter what it takes, recovery is the ultimate goal, so maybe it scared you, but maybe it was for your own good. I hope you can stick with it and resist any purge urges. Stay strong and keep picturing what could happen to your precious body if you continue abusing it. I know of several people who have died from purging/bulimia complications. I think that more anorexics die from suicide before starvation because starving is a very slow death process, but with purging the damage can cause sudden, unexpected death and it is very scary.
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emibee thanks for your positive response to my post, very appreciated.
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Okay, so whether this is the same picture or not doesn't matter.

Anyway, there is a website and it has stories of those who have died. There is a girl who was b/p'ing and she had stretched her stomach so much that is basically ruptured and killed her.

There is a picture of this on the website and it is pretty graphic. There is also a picture of the content of her stomach. She had eaten a LOT of food, a couple of liters if I remember correctly.

Point being, yes, b/p'ing can cause your stomach to rupture and you do not have to be underweight to do it.

That is something that happens slowly over time as the stomach has been stretched to it's limits and slowly starts to form tears.
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ok, i found the site.she was 19 and had had anorexia and bulimia for 5 years. she had eaten 5.6 liters of food which is 11 pints or about 1.5 gallons of food.
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I saw that too, and I think anyone who won't realize or believe that ED can kill in such ways should really be scared for themselves..I was anorexic..but I think I am ok now...but to get to this good point with my body I had to scare the shitt out of myself too....
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many (((hugz))) I know the fear of hurting urself from purging.....When I was in school we were shown morbid graphic pics of girls and boys who died from purging and starving themselves to death....its awful...my fear is that I have done so much damage to my body when I get the flu and can't controll the vomitting will it hurt me??Thats always in the back of my mind...But I think after time the body heals ....many hugz
and take good care.
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Morgaine
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I also realize that some may not understand this because they are in the middle of their ed and still purging and with that comes denial. I used to be in denial about the harmful affects of my ed, but now I am open to the truth and I accept the fact that I could have died.
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