so i've been going at my meal plans with the best intentions since i got home. i'm just discouraged that EVERY time i do start to eat, i keep worrying that i'll binge. almost EVERY time i finish what i'm supposed to eat, i freak out, binge....and subsequently purge. i haven't used the laxatives again (YIPPIE!!!!!!!!!!!!), but it's sooooo tempting. i'm discouraged, partly because i'm not losing weight anymore (though i'm not gaining either) and partly because i just can't do it right. i know i'm retaining some food (purposely, so that i don't end up ip again) and that is distressing. i still want to lose weight, but i know i shouldn't right now. i dunno, i guess, what do you guys do when you're discouraged??
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