I am feeling terrible today :( I always get terribly depressed after a binge/purge session which are becoming way to frequent. I havent been eating much for months now and I think my body is just freaking out and needs food - but not in the amounts that I consume during a binge - I really do not know how to eat normally anymore though :( Binging and purging always helps relieve anxiety and I used it as an outlet for anxiety as well - but then the next day I am twice as depressed as I usually am - I know the answer is to stop - but that is easier said then done - I feel like I am really losing control of everything :( The roller coaster of emotions first relief and then deep depression are killing me :(
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