I use to purge after a binge session. It was a miracle to me that I could binge on all the foods that I was not allowing myself to have after going as long as I could barely eating and becoming very thin, only to end up binging and gaining twice as much back in a VERY short time. When I figured out that I could eat those "bad" foods and watch them come back out in clumps it was the best thing ever. Except, I still gained weight. So I went back to my starving pattern, using the purging when I had a mess up day. I have been fighting, REALLY fighting this ED for 4 yrs. now. I was not aware of what was wrong with me the 5+ yrs. prior. I have turned to alcohol, drugs, everything only to find myself right back where I always am. I had to wear a heart monitor b/c of my binging a yr or so ago, my heart rate felt abnormal, and I have had a few EKG's b/c my heart felt strange. You can have a stroke or heart attack. That scared me from purging for a little while. Then earlier this yr. my whole mouth started aching, I mean a pain I cannot explain. I went to the dentist and found out I had periodontal (sp?) disease. My gums were seperating from my teeth. I have to have something called scaling done, and my bone density is low. I was so upset about all the things that I have done to my body when I left the dentist that I just started crying. I know that my metabolism is messed up. I have not thrown up since that visit at the beginning of this yr. I wanted to share that, maybe it will help some of you think twice before purging. I am, however stuck with my binging. If I could figure that one out I would be good to go. I mean it is very, very frustrating, I LOVE working out. I bust my a*s, and can't even have the body that I want b/c my joy is to sit on the couch over anything else and stuff my face, only for it to be my enemy after.
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