Im tinky dont hive up!!! just eat good and excercise!!! Have lots of faith in GOD!

I think you are focusing on the food, but the problem is not really about food. It never is. You have to figure out what is causing you pain, and then you can find the emotional strength to take off the weight. Therapy was the best thing that ever happened to me. It can be painful, but it's really awesome most of the time. Where else can you go and talk about yourself for a whole hour and someone has to listen like you are the only other person in the world? You owe it to yourself to figure out what your pain is, and learn to deal with it. Good luck! Hang in there! We are here for you!

When you binge and purge, you are starving your body of nutrients it needs. When you finally start eating again, your body remembers that it was starving and so all the processed food gets turned to fat to store in case you are starving again. Having an eating disorder can mess up your metabolism- sometimes permanantly. Maybe you could adress this with your doctor as well.

The fact that you point out that you're lucky to get two meals a day stands out to me. It might actually make a difference if you DO eat three meals a day. It can help level out your metabolism. The fact that you "never feel hungry" could have a lot to do with your bulimic past. Bulimia skews your feelings of hunger and fullness completaly. Try eating three balanced meals a day, as your body gets used it, you may see your hunger getting back to normal. Talking to your doctor is also a good idea if you don't see any changes.