I have been on the anorexic side of my eating disorder for the past 8 months; however, I do b/p almost every day. I'm obsessed with getting thin right now. I went and bought some scales (not good) several months ago, and the numbers are always on my mind. I make myself crazy with them. My body image is just awful right now. I have come back from this many times over the years, but I just can't seem to break the cycle of my ED. I live alone, so there is no one to observe what I'm doing and give me reality checks. I did have a friend tell me that I'm looking too thin the other day though. I was thrilled, embarrassed, scared and irritated all at the same time. The problem right now is that I feel just fine and not sick, so denial is easy. I just started a new job and don't want to lose it like I have so many others in the past because I got too sick to work and ended up in a psych unit somewhere. I am just so done with all of that. I just found this Site a couple days ago. I would appreciate any input about stopping the ED. Thanks in advance
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