I'm having a VERY difficult time with so many other issues in my life right now. I feel like the world's biggest fuck up in fact, and I'm beginning to lose my willpower to keep my head above water with this ED thing. I got so sick during my last starvation episode that I swore to never do this in front of my girls again and to keep myself healthy for their sake. But now I feel like I'm not a good mom anyway because I'm always tired and in pain...and I'm beginning to eat less, which leads to eating even less until I'm no longer eating anything at all, regardless of my attempts to do so. I don't know what to do...I know I'll feel better if I just don't eat...yet I also know what this leads to with me.