Hi - I'm somewhat new to writing on this board, although I read the discussions everyday. I really feel everyone's pain - no matter the situation. I was wondering if anyone can relate to me and my ED. I have been bulimic for almost 20 years - don't need to write how depressed I am - sure it can be understood. At this point now, I don't even understand who I am, what reality is and even why I live. All I want to do and all I do is binge and purge. I feel my ED is so weird, I don't even want to eat - I just want to b/p. All the time. It never ends. I am in such financial debt but it doesn't matter to my ED. I can't ever get the thought out of my mind. I don't even think of eating, just b/p. Does anyone relate to this? I know that I feel alone and selfish and like my ED is the worst.
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