I am anorexic/bulimic combo, technically I purge whatever I do eat, when I eat. I have been in treatment before and have been struggling recenlt with maintaining my goal weight. I like the weight I was(the smaller weight), now I'm at goal weight and I'm completely miserable. everyone around me keeps telling me how great I look and how healthy I look, and when I look in the mirror I look FAT!!!. I want to desperately go back to restricting, and purging, and losing the weight, I can't stand feeling thise way. No one around me understands whats going on with me and why its hard for me and I can't make then understand. I hate me this way. Any advice. Or can anyone relate?
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