Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
ok so i wrote a journal entry, if you could please read and give me advice or anything there is a concerning bit in there that i am a bit worried about.
thanks, CrimsonTears.
thanks, CrimsonTears.
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
1. That you think this is a good idea in the first place.
2. That you say you LOVE this new way to get rid of your food.
3. The blood. (You can scratch your throat, you can abrade your throat, you can eventually get what's known as a Mallory-Weiss Tear.)
Since you're already in therapy, I suggest bringing this whole thing up to your therapist immediately.
I'm not going to criticize you for "loving" the feeling. God knows, most of us do when we start. But then it shifts, the disorder takes control - and all you will EVER be thinking about is when you can binge and when you can purge. This idea you have that you can only do it when you really feel like it is what traps many of us.
I don't know what to say...because I remember your past posts. You seem to be driving yourself toward this, have been for awhile. It is concerning to me, and I sincerely hope that you can look at what is going on with new eyes and start striving toward recovery.
Destroying your life in pursuit of a number is not worth it.
Please take care of yourself.