Well I had the good intentions of trying not to binge eat and my intentions were good, but it didn't work and doesn't stop me from binge eating. I wish I could turn off the voice that yells at me to binge! I've only purged a handful of times, and I hate that, so I deal with the horrible and uncomfortable feelings that go with binge eating. Like some of you may know, I had gastric bypass surgery almost a year ago now, and I lost 150 pounds. Had I known I had this ED way back in the wings of my mind, I'm not sure I'd have done it (the surgery), but my health was too poor not to have had the surgery. I feel like such a failure and I'm trying my hardest to get into a local outpatient eating disorder program. It's in the works, but I'm still waiting and binging even though I don't want to, I still have to. Any words of encouragement would be greatly appreciated, because here is the only place that I don't feel alone. Hugs to everyone out here struggling like I am. Love, Cathy
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